Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Put On Your Big Girl Panties..........

The First Lady of my church uses this line, and I love it. Instead of complaining, doing immature or little girl things, or fearing the unknown, sometimes we just need to put on our big girl panties (or big boy briefs) and get the job done and move forward. I was struggling these last couple of days. On Thursday I had a wisdom tooth removed. I was put to sleep, so I just remember waking up at home and feeling good. I was fine on Thursday and Friday, even got my hair done, went out to a social event, and out to dinner (soft food). Maybe I just still had an abundance of drugs in me. However, on Saturday the pain along side effects from the medication threw me off. I was a mess and trying to continue on with my plans and be cute like nothing was wrong. I suppose I thought I was invincible. I had experienced major surgery and pain from being in a car accident, so I thought that nothing could ever get me down or physically hurt me in comparison to that experience, especially not a little wisdom tooth extraction.

Today, I am still a mess from Thursday's procedure. Maybe the oral surgeon didn't tell the whole truth when he said I'd be fine in 48 hours. My mouth hurts, my head hurts, and my stomach gets upset from the pain medication. I went to work, but I was not productive. I got things to do this week, so this small drama can't have the best of me. I am getting baptized tomorrow. I was baptized as a child, but that was before I was mature enough to understand my commitment to Christ. It was not personal; rather it was just ritual and tradition. Now baptism is personal. It is my act of obedience, public testimony, and spiritual truth of death, resurrection, and cleansing. I am sooo excited. I have to stay focused. I'm about move to another level in my walk with Christ and here I am letting a wisdom tooth extraction distract me. Whatever!! I just have to put on my big girl panties and get this move done!